A day in the life...my rant for the day.

So this morning before work, I do this everyday, I have to decide what pair of shoes I am going to suffer through for the day. It all hurts, so it's just a matter of deciding what pair hurts just the tiniest bit less than all the others.

Today I picked a pair of canvas deck type shoes...then the process begins. After two attempts and roughly 15 min. I managed to bandage, and swaddle my feet enough to ward off the pain for at least 8 hours of my 11 hour work day.

I have bunions in/on both feet and Rheumatoid Arthritis in my feet and everywhere else, I deal with the pain because the last thing I need is to become addicted to a pain med, or become so tolerant that they won't work when I need them the most, 20 years (if I am lucky) down the road when I can't walk.

I use to complain about missing high heels...nowadays I just miss being able to walk without looking like a bull in a china shop, tripping over my own two feet, which happens fairly often. I don't remember what it felt like to walk pain free...screw heels. Not to mention the times I have fallen, because I can't pick up my feet.

I've had to give up my favorite summer footwear...flip flops...can't wear them, my toes so crooked flip flops rub my toes raw with the effort to walk in them. Heck most sandals are not doable because my toes rub against each other. It's awful. I honestly don't like people to look at my feet.

Most people, I am sure, take walking for granted, I know I used to. I would happily put up with all the other pain...knees that don't work, ankles that sometimes swell, finger and hands that are not as agile as they used to be...awful. Losing the ability to walk...crushing.